Friday, February 25, 2011

A Journey back to whatever it was..


Okay, I know you all are going to have a good laugh but I am going to share this anyway… it’s been almost a month that I am tutoring a kid (with a strong hope that she won’t turn out to be just like me). Every time I go to her place it brings back some special memories of my life-schooldays and ‘kiddo’days…
                   I remember I had my first private tutor when I was in class 5. Oh!! That woman was a pain in my ass … she was trying me to understand all about latitude and longitude (how I hated geography!!) and all I could concentrate on was her ugly, long nails painted in different colours different weeks. Believe me; she used to show me the nail polishes she had recently bought. And that pissed the hell out of me… that evil woman should have understood how a 10yr old, who is not allowed to wear nail colours, feels…sigh... I was so desperate to grow up then. And needless to say I was an awful student =)
                   And now when I teach ‘my’ student (coincidentally she’s in class 5 too) I understand how happy I was then… those sexy slim books are real treat to my eyes. Pictures of “ধুতুরা  ফুল ” in Life science book, “কিশলয়”, “নব  গণিত  মুকুল ”, “Gulmohor” and of course the evil Geography book by বসু  ও  মৌলিক - all seems heaven. She hates to study geography too and that’s why I give her homework on geography almost everyday and watch the same reflection in her eyes that I used to be so familiar with …umm…it has been almost a decade now… how time passes by!!!
                            Love those days…. And miss them terribly…
P.S. I had 2 private tutors after that evil one and I drove them nuts as well…but I am grateful to them for making me whatever shitty thing I am today… one taught me getting good scores could be turned into an obsession (which I completely forgot after my 10th though) and another taught me to love literature and to love myself… wherever you are thank you for everything… 

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Retrospection


It’s been almost like an year since I’ve last visited my blog , so forget about posting anything.. Sometimes even I forget that I have a blog…. I don know what made me writing today…the reason might be the upcoming selection test which happens to be on next Monday. Usually at this period I feel like doing anything but study. Huh, the voice inside my head just asked a pretty lame question…”when the hell you like studying San??!!” “ohh..shut up now…this is my blog alright!!”
           Whatever… it’s 2011 and I’m 19… and still the same ol’ confused and clueless bitch I used to be… so much happened throughout the year… I learnt quite a few things…learnt them in a hard way though… we always become habituated to happiness so easily and quickly that never think twice about the consequences… the hard way...
     But you can never quit or escape… only acceptance makes life easier, the oh-so-fucking great lesson of acceptance. This time you can run away but there is always another time when you have to come back and that is your moment of truth…
 Crap,what am I writing!! Whatever!!
            Lost my track…I think its better to sign off now and bury my nose into the books… don know when I am gonna post again but believe me that’s gonna be just like this one, full of  crap…

Impression, soleil levant by Monet