A Little More of My Blahs

Even with the gruelling thoughts of the exams, yesterday I waited. I waited for a certain something. And this morning I went out to the examination centre – waiting! Ya, as usual, nothing happened. I appeared for my exams and came home, and again the thought came hurrying back and started bugging me. It doesn’t matter anymore. I thought I’ve let go of things but did not know there are still a few things I am holding on to till today. The more I try to let go, the more I think about it and end up being inside the closet.

                  It is peculiar that how all of a sudden one feels all grown up. Grown up just by a single blow from life. I dread that if I feel like this now what will happen when I will be 25 or something! May be I’ll be strong enough to stand tall then. A friend once told me, “You have never struggled to have what you wanted. You always get them easily.” May be you were right! I have never struggled. And lets put it this way,ummm, this girl doesn’t know how to struggle and survive. But I’ll find out the way, I guess! Shit happens! And everybody has to go down in it to sort things out!

P.S. Am i being a bit of a downer,eh?!!